Christmas cheer!

This week is a good week! Some happy news to share :)

With the effort by my manager, I clinched my incentive for a $500 shopping voucher from my company. I am SUPER HAPPY because I haven't shopped for so long. This can seriously cover the expenses I need to incur for getting new clothes for work and some dance stuff... Super indebted to my manager and my agency secretary :)

Also Fer gave me another Christmas gift of $100 vouchers! So that is $600 in all. :D :D :D :D I am nothing but all smiles now, hahahhaa. Only problem is now I need to find the TIME to go shopping...!



Took my braces off yesterday, and this is how I looked right after leaving my orthodontist clinic!


Cool eh? I hated the process of taking off the braces tho - my orthodontist ran some machine going over every tooth, very uncomfortable - totally reminded me of why I've always hated going to the dentist! I can't imagine anyone who dislikes pain (i.e. my sister) going through this. Reminded me of the time when I first introduced these metal things into my mouth. It had been tough! Tolerated with ulcers, difficulty closing my mouth, fear and distress over extracting 2 healthy teeth, speech difficulties cause of putting on the bite plate, a lot of discipline to put on whatever my orthontist asked me to put on at the right times, pain after adjustments and not being able to eat a lot of hard food, surviving on a soft diet, some dizzy spells because I couldn't feed myself with enough calories, unglamness with rubberbands across everywhere in my mouth. As they say, when you taste the reward you will know the adversity you went through was worth it.

Am applying this concept to work now. It will be tough for my first couple of years, but I will be able to make it, as long as I put in the hard work! I can't wait to taste teh sweetness of my effort :) The next step for myselfs is: Don't think too much; just do. Whatever the next step is, just do that.

Imagine, I had been dreaming of how I'd look with teeth pushed back, expecting a more "matured" (vs retarded) look... I got it! Although overall I know I still look cute. But it's okay! I am a cutie pie with a sweet-looking smile!



Merry Christmas to all, wish me happy performing with my new teeeeeth!!

The official

It's official.

I've been racking my brain for a long time why I am so desperately sleepy every single day. And the relevation is that I am officially depressed again.

The next step? Just go through every single day as it is. I have no wish to think further than tomorrow.

Confidence

I have really ridiculous dreams, you have no idea.

2 nights ago I dreamt that a fashion show with models catwalking the runway was happening RIGHT IN MY OFFICE! Now let's see what this means.

Catwalk
To see or dream that you are walking a catwalk, represents your new found confidence. It may also mean that you enjoy being the center of attention. You are being recognized for your talents or creativity. Alternatively, the dream could mean that you are using your appearance to get your way. You need to start looking within yourself.

Fashion
To dream about fashion, suggests that you are depending too much on your looks to get your way. You need to start looking within yourself. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you have blended into the background. You need to step up and be more confident.

Office
To dream of your work office, indicates that you cannot seem to leave your work at the office. You may be overworked or have too much on your mind. Alternatively, it symbolizes practicality, status, accomplishments or your place in the world.

Last night, I dreamt that I was rushing for a performance. I had some makeup on but apparently it wasn't enough! I was super nervous I couldn't get my makeup done in time... and while touching up all the works needed for my face it felt forever! I was experiencing every step of the makeup process. My blusher, eyeshadow... and still I nearly forgot to stick on my eyelashes and put on my lipstick. Just because I was trying to finish this stupid makeup and get on stage, I didn't want to wake up! While I was doing all these a Michael Jackson tribute going on as the opening to the event.

Makeup
To dream that you are applying make-up, suggests that you are trying to cover up or conceal an aspect of yourself. Alternatively, it indicates that you are putting on your best face forward. You are trying to enhance your self-image and increase your sense of self-confidence.

The dream may also be a metaphor that you need to "make up" with someone. It is time to forgive and forget.


Rush
To dream that you are in a rush, suggests that you need to better manage your time. You feel that you do not have the time to do all the things you want to do. The dream is also representative of the pressure you are putting on yourself.


Late
To dream that you are late, denotes your fear of change and your ambivalence about seizing an opportunity. You may feel unready, unworthy, or unsupported in your current circumstances. Additionally, you may be overwhelmed or conflicted with decisions about your future. You feel time is running out and that you do not have time to accomplish all the things you want.

I really didn't expect the breakup would affect me so much. If it can affect a person's confidence level, that says a lot. All I can only hope is to leave everything behind and get busy with my own life, moving forward. You will help me, won't you, dearies? :)

Happy weekends to y'all!

I looooove dreammoods

Pervert
To see a pervert in your dream, suggests that you are having issues with closeness in some relationship. You are trying to keep your distance and avoid from getting hurt.

In fact, I dreamt of 2 perverts. Haha, double the kick!

This time, I didn't have to remind myself not to cry. It just happens so naturally. The picture is just too clear to miss.

I really loooove my logical self. So much :)

They say Optimism is key

Finally, some dreams. And realistic ones they are, too! So realistic it's hard to believe they are dreams that I'm meant to draw inferences from.

I dreamt of this a few days ago but didn't have the chance to document down.

Because my lower back was arched and getting shorter I had some equipment strapped to my legs to make my legs straighter, especially at my knees. (This absolutely makes sense because my dance instructor had told me in real life that my lower back muscle is too short and my arch makes me hyper-extended. She even explained and demonstrated that it's related to my tight hamstrings as well.)

But this equipment made me look odd and I had difficulties walking! :\

Legs
To see your legs in your dream, indicate that you have regained confidence to stand up and take control again. It also implies progress and your ability to navigate through life.

Back
To dream of your back, represents your attitudes, strengths, burdens and stance in the world. It may also relate to stress and pressure that someone is putting on you.

Spine
To dream about yours or someone else's spine, represents your support system and responsibilities. You need to keep your head high even in difficult times. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to stay true to your own convictions and be firm. The spine is symbolic of strength.


Source: Dreammoods

I think it is no wonder why my upper back muscles are always so stiff. The amount of responsibilities I carry on myself... is enough to scare a small body like mine.


I dreamt of this last night. I was in the kitchen and one after another either a cockroach or a lizard would appear and I would chase after it and insecticide it to death. I even saw the expression of one of the lizards when I sprayed the toxin into its eyes! It actually said, "You really got me" before it died. I was feeling pretty good about catching almost every cockroad/lizard that appeared. I was bewildered why so many of them appeared when usually they wouldn't dare to even flinch when a human being is around! I did a count: I killed about 10 cockroaches and 10 lizards, bodies all lying over the kitchen.

Cockroach
To see a cockroach in your dream, signifies your need for renewal, rejuvenation and self-cleansing of your psychological, emotional, or spiritual being. You need to reevaluate major aspects of your life.

Lizard
To see a lizard in your dream, signifies your primal instincts and reactions toward sex, food, etc. and your anxieties toward these feelings. The lizard can also be representative of a person who you view as cold-blooded, fearful, or thick-skinned. On a more positive note, the lizard also symbolizes emerging creativity, renewal, and revitalization. It may also suggest that you are well-grounded.


Source: Dreammoods

I don't really know what to make of this dream. It's true that I need to be more optimistic. But I am doubting how realistic it is. What major aspects of my life should I re-evaluate, when most of it concerns things I can't change?

I am thinking.

Lonely Christmas

If I could use the measuring jar (maybe the type you use to measure annual rainfall) to measure the amount of tears I've shed this year, it must have been a record. I have never cried so much.

By the end of the 11th month of this year, I have realised that it seems:

• The harder I try, the harder I fall.
• The harder I try, the harder it is to keep people beside me.
• The harder I try, the harder it is to try again.

Nobody knows what's going on. I have nobody to tell. Even if I did, nothing would probably come out of me, because I've simply lost the ability to communicate who I am anymore.

During training today we did an activity on listening, understanding and trying to reach commonality with a client in the case he/she complains about bad experience with insurance. We conducted a role-play activity where each of us took turns to be the Financial Consultant and the Client. After the activity, the trainer commented to the class that playing the role of the FC I demonstrated I was very serious about listeninng and learning about the client. I was very engrossed in the conversation.

I agree. I've always made it a point to understand each and every person I talk to, in fact, I have already treated it as a way of life. But the same hardly ever happens to me; indeed sometimes the opposite happens - I get misunderstood. I understand. Everyone likes to feel important, understood, and to talk about him or herself. But what is the point of trying so hard to understand people (you care about) when they don't try to do the same to you? The more well-versed I get at personality tests, the more I feel set apart. It is a cold world we live in, indeed extremely cold.

I don't know what I am doing anymore. The tunnel is damp, cold and hard. And the warmth and joy of the light is just nowhere to be seen.

It is another lonely Christmas.

My first PDC performance

Really happy to have started the first PDC performance with my dear PDC mates! :)

This was for the Hakka Food Festival. My were there a lot of people! The organisers had even closed off Peck Seah street for this event. Just the fact so many Singaporeans turned up for the event is enough to prove how much Singaporeans really love eating.






Jenni and my duet performance.


This smoke effect was really uncalled for...




Camwhoring in the studio... Showing off my new costume for the first time!
 

Hmm, I seriously need to work on my tummy :\


Having some hakka food after the event! Whatever that's left... most of the stalls had sold off all their food and hawkers gone home!





Went to Jennifer's choir performance after class, which was after performance (phew, tiring!). It was a worship choir presentation: Vesperae Solennes De Confessore. Interesting to see Jenni sing for the first time! :)


 



There Jennifer is~


Final shot to end the long day.


I Y being so busy every weekend :)

Don't you hate it when people don't mean what they say / don't say what they mean?

Here's a good article. Enjoy reflecting on yourselves/ your apologisees!

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3 Lousy Ways to Apologize for a Mistake
Ever receive an apology from someone yet feel that they weren't sorry? You were probably right, says Jodi R.R. Smith, author of From Clueless to Class Act: Manners for the Modern Woman. "People will make obligatory apologies in which they don't take responsibility for their actions," she explains. "But if you say, 'It doesn't sound like you're sorry at all,' your relationship will be strained — it may even end," Smith says. "Is calling them on their lousy apology worth that?" Instead, if you receive one of the following apology impostors, reply, "Thank you for saying something" or "I forgive you."

"I'm sorry if I upset you."
Translation: I'm not really sorry for what I did. In fact, I don't see any reason I shouldn't do it again. I'm just apologizing because you seem to have gotten yourself all worked up about it.

"I'm sorry for what I did, but..."
Example: "I'm sorry I got a spot on your shirt that I borrowed, but you didn't tell me it would be hard to clean. Plus, the restaurant was dark, and I couldn't see that sauce was streaming off my fork onto it." Translation: I'm full of excuses, all of which absolve me of blame. The mistake is half your fault and half due to circumstances beyond my control.

"I know you'll forgive me because you're a reasonable person and we all make mistakes."
Translation: I'm not really guilty of anything except being human, so stop looking so cross — unless you're an unreasonable cretin.

Source: MSN lifestyle

Persistency rules

This is a quick message to announce that my blog visits record has finally broken the 10,000 mark!! I've truly been waiting :)

It's not a big deal nor a great record to boot about but it's the very first site I've made that allowed this to happen :) Cheers to more 10,000! Persistency rules~~~

:D

Oh my! I'm born to be a millionaire?!

Are you destined to be a millionaire -- wealth indication in your Ba Zi

Finding out if you are likely to do business successfully and become a millionaire is certainly possible. The answers are hidden in your birth day data. Chinese astrology is called The Four Pillars of Destiny, and also called Ba Zi (eight characters). It is based on a persons birth day data which includes year, month, day and hour of birth. Each pillar is recorded by two elements, which are written in Chinese characters. So there are eight characters in one persons birth day data.

A persons Ba Zi is the file of their life, containing all their information. This is a deep and complex subject. From ancient masters experiences, research with senior masters and my own long study and practice, I have found that there are twenty-six indicators relating to a persons career and wealth, the information from them is practical and accurate.

Below are some typical examples:

1. If a persons Ba Zi has strong metal and weak wood, they were born to do business. Strong metal, weak wood, refers to people born in July and August (farmers calendar). The metal element in these months is very prosperous, the wood element is restricted by metal, and is therefore weak. Such as people born in the year of metal rat (water); in the month of wood monkey (metal); on the day of wood sheep (earth) at the hour of metal snake (fire).
   
   
2. If the Ba Zi has the combination of Jia wood Bin fire Geng metal Yin wood Shen metal, then the person is also destined for business. If there is only tiger wood, missing monkey metal or the other way round, then the person must be in the year of Monkey or Tiger or be in the luck era of Monkey or Tiger to do business successfully and be prosperous.
   For example: one of my clients has the Ba Zi: year (fire monkey), month (wood horse), day (metal dog), hour (metal snake) The Tiger element is missing in this chart, however 1986 was a year of Fire Tiger, this person made more than 5 million dollars in that year.
   
   
3. The travel horse (name of a star in destiny reading) can either be riding on prosperity or can hide prosperity. In either case the person is not only a successful in business, but can also be a multi millionaire.

To determine whether a person is born to be a millionaire, it is necessary to check the number of elements which symbolize prosperity in the Ba Zi, and also to check if the pillar of the travel horse is riding on prosperity or if prosperity is in the position of growth. If a persons day master is strong, and his/her lucky element is prosperity, and the prosperity era happens to be in the middle or after middle age, then the person will become a millionaire.

Ba Zi is a deep art, newcomers to it will find the terms difficult to understand. Many of them do not translate well from Chinese. However the Ba Zi techniques outlined here provide powerful insights into the likely prosperity of individuals.

Source: Feng Shui Secrets


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Guess what! I am a strong metal/weak wood AND I have a travelling horse star in my bazi! Huat la!!!~~~


My only question is why on earth I am not already a millionaire NOW?!

Love

I plucked this from a friend's quote on facebook:

"Loving someone requires a generous and big heart ~ Generous enough to reach out with love even though you felt taken for granted or that they don't deserve you. And big enough that you can love them despite their failures, fault, quirky ways, insensitiveness or ignorance.. :Q) it's not easy but it's doable!"

- Jaycee

Sometimes I find I understand too many things too well to even bother to put them into words. But people who are not me need too much reminding. This is when friends like Jaycee come in! :)

Love is such a simple matter yet so complexed to understand.

Braces are going off soon!

Wednesday, I saw my orthodontist. After a good investigation he conceded to my request to take my braces off in 3 to 4 weeks time. At point of discussion, I could not believe I was putting away my braces for good. They have become part of me so much that asking me to throw it away actually made me ache a bit inside.

Bye, braces - you've done much for me this 1 year and 8 months. I will miss you. But before that, please do a proper job by the end of these 3 weeks :P I am suffering a lot down here okay. Orthodontist had done serious adjustments and it hurt a lot.


It has been a very long week and a super busy weekend! Yet I can still find time to think about nonsense. I am hoping I dream tonight so I can get rid of the nonsense soon. Good night!

KL and that thing called feeling

I feel like I have a lot to tell. Like, A LOT, A LOT, A LOT... I don't even know where to start.

It's mostly unhappy stuff tho. I've been crying a bit - I don't even really know, or want to pinpoint, on what exactly. But it's that irky feeling that wouldn't go away - I still feel it. For the record, my period has ended. I just hope the stars prove my intuition wrong OR my intuition proves itself right by even reacting, that everything will turn out positive in the end.

I need to be lucky and blessed. I should be.


The KL trip has done some good for me. I had thought at first the uneasiness my intuition was giving me was indicating something about the trip, but it actually wasn't. After I came back, the feeling came back too.

Shit, I don't like the way I'm talking. What's all this feeling rubbish. Okay, cut!!

Lemmi show you some pictures from the weekend trip instead! :) It was my first trip to Kuala Lumpur~~~

Waiting for our flight on Friday afternoon.


We met up with Rebecca who had arrived before us and took a taxi together back to hotel. Initial plan was to attend the very first workshop right after we landed, but turned out we miscalculated the time to reach the venue from the airport, so there goes! Even our last workshop on Sunday had to be missed because our return flight was scheduled too early. There you go! This is a team of bad planners :p

We decided to go for dinner instead because Jing was dying from hunger.

Waiting for bak kut teh at eatery outside hotel - the infamous camwhore pose. No Pat album/ holiday is complete without it!




Nice veges


We decided to do some exploring of the city that night, took a taxi out.

Love the towers! :) Rebecca said at this point, "这双塔好... 霜哦！" Damn funny!




Station where you take the MRT, which I didn't manage to commute in during my stay.


My 2 Chinese friends along the clubbing district at Jalan Sultan Ismail.


It's me and (one of) the towers!






Jalan Sultan Ismail - For clubbing and shopping. I like!


Before popping into any of the clubs we decided to drop by the supermarket. Finally I satisfied my ice-cream craving! And dragged these 2 along as well, hahaha!


Settled at Thai Club. Jing's love (singer at club). If you ask me, it's just for the looks...


Picture with Peter, Jing's love!


As per last incident at a Thai club in Singapore Jing pulled me to the stage to dance again. The crowd was really good! They loved our dancing and went clapping, screaming and moving really vigorously. I was pleasantly surprised man! I think, if I were a superstar my concert would definitely sell out :D


Saturday morning: Malaysian breakfast near hotel.






Some shots of the vicinity of our hotel. Quite sub-urby/ slumped actually.






Tamalyn Dallal and I! Yay!! She is the reason I was in KL! :)


Double veil was tough but I really learnt a lot from Tamalyn. Can't wait to put what I've learnt to use! :)

Jing and I went for dinner and did some shopping... before finally arriving grandly at NeoGlobal for hafla :P Check out this gorgeous place! Y


Babes in dresses. I wasn't in a dress so I wasn't a babe that night :P Waiting for performances to start at NeoGlobal Club!


It was fabbuuulloouse performances, seriously. I enjoyed every bit of it - well, almost :p

The rest of the night and next morning we spent drinking beer, eating cakes and chit chatting in the hotel. I was loving travelling with a couple of girls, instead of my usual one-with-one company. I Y my friends! :)


More Tamalyn Dallal in the early afternoon on Sunday and off Jing and I sped to catch our flight home. I was sad to get back to Singapore :(

All in all, KL is really very similar to Singapore, so much so I felt no real desire or curiosity to explore the city's culture. But I still am glad to have visited! KL is after all Singapore's nearest city-neighbour! I've dreamt for so long of visiting :)


So all in all (back to what I started off this entry saying), I'd like to announce I am letting go of the deep sore feelings. I am keeping my attitude positive and upbeat, every single day. That is my only job - nothing else! :) Wish me luck, darlings!

Going mad! I want to cry man.

I am not sure why but I feel sick. Not physically medically kind of sick, but... like psychologically. I don't know how to explain. But it's a feeling that's making me sick. Something that is making me feel not so right.  Actually a few things. I am feeling like a different person from what I was for the last 3 months. My judgement, communication everything... I know this sounds ridiculous to you. I sound ridiculous to myself too. I think my hormones are making me crazy.

I am going on and on about nothing! Maybe I should just stop and FEEL the REAL problem.

Drats! :(

Is it hormones?

I am vexed and sick. I hate feeling like this - having period and cramps and still vexed about choice of jobs. I thought I was over it! DARRNIT.
I am thinking about this following block of analysis.

If the universe feels you are not in the kind of job that would ever permit that to happen, it will get you out of there to help you find a much better setting. You need a job that can show off your talents, dear Leo. Like a rare diamond, you need the right setting to show all of your brilliance to best advantage. It looks like you may have found that position in early November.

Source: AstrologyZone's October forecast for Leo

I need to talk to someone. But who??? How can I make a decision... :(

PS/ Blogger is really slow I'm falling asleep

IT IS CRAZY how flings from 2 years ago can suddenly appear just out of the blue, baffling me entirely.

The irony is, even with a queue of suitors hot at my heels, I haven't been surer - okay to be fair every time I say this I've always felt I've never been surer :P - that love is definitely not anything near what I want now.

After an unanticipated break I am back to my old self wondering what the hell the hooha is all about over love. Seriously. Very simply, I just cannot be bothered about stupid, time-wasting things like love anymore. Especially not after wasting such tremendous effort on something so worthless.

I still want to go out, play, take part in activities and all that light-hearted stuff... I am not being arrogant (a lot of people think I am), but really this is entirely my honest disposition now.

So for sure Pat is back. I am so sorry, darlings. I have kept you waiting.


Work, dance and socialising are taking up 97% of my time, remaining 3% for household chores and Pat-pampering activities. I am happy!

• Private class just now was good, I learnt about ways to improve and got some assurance about my current techniques
• Got a confirmation that I will have a performance in 3 weeks! Very excitedly thinking, planning and preparing for the items now! :)
• Work seems to be progressing... I'm sure by end of this month I should be achieving some significant milestone. Being absolutely positive! :)
• Socialising seems very healthy so far! Don't know how to describe but I'm really happy to be talking to a lot of people everyday, hehe. Not to mention being close to my family dearies again!
• I seem to be bingeing and my tummy is hanging out, but men are still telling me they love it, so... that's REALLY something to be happy about too! hahahahahaha

 
I HAPPY. Craving for more play, please! :)

It is another jumpy and handful update, but I really mean to tell ya everything :)

Rare of me to be home on a Saturday! Except for the fact that the house is really dirty (due to my own making/negligence), I'm really happy to be home and resting.

There is no doubt I've been tiring myself out. Considering the vast amount of time I've been spending in the office, I feel I haven't accomplished much. Maybe that's the reason making me tired :\ And then I spent most of the non-working hours with friends and on entertainment. AND then I keep doing things to break my body, exhausting myself physically. Going home late every night. Breaking my neck, shoulders, chest, arms, thighs, feet from bellydance training, classes, salsa, bollywood and carrying my laptop and documents. I have been falling asleep on every bus trip like nobody's business.

Something is feeling not quite right.

Seriously man! Now I'm feeling guilty having spent so much time, energy and money on non-productive activities :( Someone, please tell me these non-productive activities are productive.

Okay I'll cut it out and start BEING productive.


Wells, update about the visit to my eye surgeon. I've been really fed up with how my vision seemed to be getting worse and eyes are forever, ever dry; and especially now I'm considering driving. So I decided to see my eye surgeon to do a thorough check and find out the problem. Even tho I HATE being possibly told my eyesight is getting worse (you know all my life I've hated going to the optician to find out I need new glasses) and the consultation fee was a freaking $91 I decided I've procrastinated long enough :(

You don't know how worried I was when my surgeon frowned and said "This is definitely not good!" after taking a look at my vision pre-test. Made me sick in the stomach :( He sent me for a power test, which ironically turned out to say my power has not increased since after my surgery 4.5 years ago!

So, after 4.5 years it's still 100 on the left and 150 on the right. It's such a miracle when all my life my eyesight has always been regressing, and regressing, and regressing, and regressing........!! And especially when my surgeon said to begin with sometimes people with high myopia do get regressed power after surgery. And the way I treated my eyes when I was in my previous job - late nights, almost 24 hours of staring at the PC, minimal sleep... woah. I really am surprised :)

Can you imagine I can see better than most of youuuuuuuu!! Hahahahah.

Hence power regression was ruled out and he decided it's the dryness causing poor quality in vision. He prescribed me some power drops to use, which I feel have not really been that powerful really. Altho yes they do clear my vision to a little extent for a while.

I will monitor for a while more with these drops, drink more water and get some supplements for my poor cute dry eyes. If there's still blurriness, I'm gonna be so sure it's higher-order aberrations.............................

*Smirk* You must be wondering what that chim phrase is right! Hehehehehe. I did an extensive google research and found this!

Higher-order aberrations or HOAs are more complex vision errors than lower-order aberrations, which have more familiar names such as nearsightedness, farsightedness and astigmatism.
Higher-order aberrations have relatively unfamiliar names such as coma, spherical aberration and trefoil. These types of aberrations can produce vision errors such as difficulty seeing at night, glare, halos, blurring, starburst patterns or double vision (diplopia).

Source: High-Order Aberrations in the Eye

Those are what I have. And if it really disturbs me enough I will consider going for Custom or Wavefront Lasik.

Higher-order aberrations can create problems such as decreased contrast sensitivity or night vision, glare, shadows and halos. However, higher-order aberrations do not always affect vision. Unlike traditional LASIK, custom LASIK treats both lower- and higher-order aberrations.

Custom LASIK's advantage lies in the area of quality of vision:

• Greater chance of achieving 20/20 vision
• Greater chance of achieving better than 20/20 vision
• Reduced chance of losing best-corrected vision
• Reduced chance of losing visual quality or contrast sensitivity
• Reduced chance of night-vision disturbances and glare

Potential also exists for custom LASIK to treat people who have lost best-corrected vision from any past refractive surgery: LASIK, PRK, RK, etc.

Source: Custom or Wavefront LASIK

Sounds so good!! But wait, it also says this.

Not all refractive surgeons agree that wavefront-guided LASIK can treat higher order aberrations. In fact, studies show that both wavefront LASIK and conventional LASIK can sometimes cause these aberrations because of artificial changes made to the natural shape of the eye's surface. However, wavefront-guided LASIK may be less likely to induce higher-order aberrations than conventional LASIK, according to discussion in the April 2005 issue of Ophthalmology Times.

Source: Custom or Wavefront LASIK

Sigh. Truthfully I never really believed in artificially intercepting with nature, like surgery, medications etc. I was hoping I'll never have to do another surgery again :( Let's see how it goes.

So people, be careful about going to lasik. If you must, ask for Custom or Wavefront Lasik!


I am feeling quite happy these days that I bought a bellydance costume that Fer has touted is "the best bellydance costume" in my collection, and that I've been catching up with friends, and then later there's Halloween!

Oh oh, and. Louise and I will be performing our Bollywood number for Christmas. That's it! I've said it, Lulu! NO BACKING OUT.

I've been tired yes, but after taking my damn rest for a while I'm suddenly very happy again. I cannot WAIT for more and more happy events coming up! Watch out for HALLOWEEN PICTURES.


Happy Halloween, folks!

This update is jumping all over the place

Voilà, I am blogging from office! How are you folks doing, man!

It didn't occur to me till after meeting up with Chris that I haven't been catching up with friends' blogs. I think I have been THAT busy... or engrossed, with work and what-nots.

I am suddenly much happier tho. Hoping this will stay. Happiness/Satisfaction is really the pillar or foundation that everything is built upon.

Work is still nerve-wrecking. I have a lot to do but I'm not doing much, mainly cause really not much time. And yet I am still spending! Bought a new bellydance costume, having dinners with friends, going to see my eye surgeon, halloween party... all these cost.

I need better planning! Or work is never gonna take off! Insecurity is seriously screaming.


Appointment with eye surgeon is later. I hope my eyes are okay... :( Keep you all updated.

What to do

Few days ago I dreamt that I was trying to sell comic books with deliberately cut cover pages to a male colleague. He was only willing to buy each book for $1. It made me quite upset. Ridiculously I had cut up the cover pages to make the comic books better to sell.

Selling
To dream that you are selling something, indicates that you are undergoing changes in your waking life. You may be experiencing difficulties in letting go or parting with something.Learn to compromise. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun that you are "selling" yourself short.

Last night I dreamt he was involved in a fight.

Fighting
To see others fighting in your dream, suggests that you are unwilling to acknowledge your own problems and turmoil. You are not taking any responsibility or initiative in trying to resolve issues in your waking life.

Really, I am not quite sure what compromise I need to make and what initiative I'm supposed to take, but I definitely think these dreams mean something.

Everyone is unique. But not everyone is rare.

The number of entries I've written for October so far is retarded. I didn't even realise the month has passed me by till 8.30pm just now when my manager said pay day is coming soon.

Forecast was raving on and on how good October would be for me. I don't find anything fantastic has happened. The most "fantastic" thing that did take place was that I ended a relationship; which if you really think about, isn't really all that "fantastic".

Still, I can't blame pop astrology for stereotyping. I am afterall a very "uncommon" individual (read: weird).

redcurlyhair * 天之大 says (10:52 PM):
I don't think I'm an easy person to understand
or like

simpleasures says (10:54 PM):
its a good n bad thing

redcurlyhair * 天之大 says (10:56 PM):
how is it good?

simpleasures says (10:56 PM):
good...then wont get "eaten" by ppl
hahaha
the otehr person wont knw what u r thinkin

redcurlyhair * 天之大 says (10:58 PM):
how is it bad?

simpleasures says (10:58 PM):
bad coz other ppl find it hard to communicate with u
haha

There is a reason that I am me, and you are you. Just because I am not you and you are not me does not mean we should live in conflict, criticism, hostility and enemity all the time. If you wouldn't do that to your parents, friends, colleagues - why would you do that to me? You can't expect the whole world to be like you because that simply doesn't happen. Why would you want that, anyway? Wouldn't the world be too boring if everyone were like you? Wouldn't you die 30 years younger cause of frustration from refusing to share your real feelings, or understand how others perceive the world their ways?

There is no understanding in this world. Why do we live together?


Work has been fabulous. Although there's loads and loads to learn, and it's stressing me up every single day, I'm actually enjoying it. It beats having to think about human relationships, any time. Hands down. The past 2 to 3 weeks, I have been trying to tire myself out to the max. I suffered a relatively severe repercussion towards the end of last week/beginning of this week. If I had wanted to put my mind out of perspective and thoughts, it definitely worked. It just isn't so good for the body and performance at work.

Have decided to stop doing that since, for sake of work :P


On a brighter note, I am pleased to announce that I am taking up Bollywood and Jazz this and next month! Will be lining up for performances as well in November. Work-wise, I'm expecting myself to start going for calls independently - nerve-wrecking!

There are so many new experiences coming up, I can't waittttt! :)  As long as I don't have to deal with relationships, life is just wonderful.

Liberated~ (I better remember)

Being liberated spiritually is a very good feeling. I wish I could describe how it feels so I can write it down and reminisce whenever I forget; but it's a snap feeling. I can't even remember how it feels now.

It actually took me 4 days to come to the realisation. Am I slow or what. I can't believe I'm a Director personality type. We're supposed to be able to make decisions fast.

Or maybe, I knew all along what I wanted. But reconciling with reality is another matter altogether.

Welcome to reality, dearest Pat.

Ris Low spoof

This is really sooo funny I must share with you all.

Side track: I love Gurmit Singh, really. I'm so proud of him being such a talented Singaporean fellow mate.:)

World, I am getting so far away from you.

Something is wrong with me... I am feeling super strange. Why am I not feeling as sad as I thought I should be? Why am I not dreaming? Am I staring at earth from above the clouds again (read: being far too objective and analytical)?

Or have I not accepted the fact? Am I in denial?

Please, let me feel. I want to be normal. I don't want to be struck with a whammy and get hit doubly hard when it's too late...